Hello all!  Happy New Year!!  As I reflect on 2013, I realize that I did not achieve my personal goals due to a lack of consistency.  So, my mantra for 2014 is Consistency in All Things.  I want to be consistent in: working out, eating healthy, preparing home-cooked meals, saving for a home, being a friend and most importantly, taking time for myself.  I’ve been so wrapped up in everyone else, that I tend to forget about my own needs.  I need to be in the gym – I’ve tried working out at home and I just don’t have enough self-motivation to keep at it when I get a little winded or tired.  Being in the gym keeps me working.  I feel I have to…strangers are helping me and they don’t even know it.  I don’t want to appear weak or unable to do something, so I push myself, hard.  Developing a routine and being consistent will be key for me this year.  I also need to be present in the kitchen!  It’s so easy just to swing by a fast food restaurant and pick up something and it’s what I’ve done most days that my daughter has gymnastics practices until 8 pm.  But all of that is changing.  Even before the new year, I purchased some new kitchen  tools and items to help me be successful this coming year.  In December,  I started cooking more home meals than I have in almost 5 years.  It seems insane to write that, but it is true.  A home-cooked meal was the exception and not the rule.  😦  I’ve also recruited my daughter to eat more healthy too…we are exploring recipes together and she is helping me with picking out groceries.  She feels a sense of responsibility now that she’s involved in the entire process.

We’re six days into the New Year and so far so good!  I’m making myself a protein smoothie every morning for breakfast which is awesome because I would often skip breakfast and just drink some cream and sugar with a hint of coffee at work every morning.  I use 8 oz. skim milk, 1 scoop ON double chocolate whey protein powder, handful of frozen blueberries, 1/2 tsp of flaxseed, plus 2-3 ice cubes in a blender.  I thought it would taste gross putting these ingredients together, but it is actually is very tasty and the consistency is also appealing.  I’m curious to see what it will taste like with vanilla protein powder.  I know some people think you should skip milk all together in favor of almond or soy milk, but I like good ol’ cows milk, in the skim version.

Last year, my wonderful friend Christine embarked on 30-day challenges last year with great success and I would like to incorporate some 30-day challenges of my own this year.  My first 30-day challenge is sponsored by the Spartan Race and it consists of walking/running one mile each day for 30 days.  So, here’s to day one!!  Since it has been some time since I actually ran, I think I will start with walking and work my way up to running.  You can opt to do more than a mile, but the minimum is one mile per day.  I’m excited about this challenge because it forces me to get my butt to the gym.  The Spartan Race is running this through Facebook and is asking people to post pictures of their completed miles/times, which will keep me even more accountable.

Here’s to a great start into 2014!! Until next time…

Hello all…I think I’ve found my mojo!  I went to the gym four days this week, cooked most of the week and consciously made smart choices when I did eat out!  I realized if I just show up to the gym, I work and I work hard!  Today I’m walking like an 80-year old lady because I went hard – I didn’t stop until my legs felt like J-E-L-L-O!   I have a major case of DOMS and I’m loving it!

Another highlight to my week was seeing my former trainer, and now Biggest Loser trainer, Dolvett Quince.   My daughter always makes the comment about how weird it is seeing him on TV when we know him in real life.  LOL!  It was surreal – it always is!  He’s such a great person and I’m so happy for all of his success; I wish him nothing but the best.  I’ve attached a few pictures from his book signing.  I trained with him and his trainers back in 2009 and 2010, when I was getting close to my military weight of 144 lbs (pure muscle), and I let all that hard work slip away.  It was a bit embarrassing to see him in my current state, but it did ignite a fire in me to get fit and make a lifetime, lifestyle change.  Change is hard, but I am finding my way daily.

The holidays will be a true testament to my determination and I’ve already got a jumpstart on things!  Last night I chatted with my sister-in-law about the Christmas dinner menu…and mentioned that I would like to incorporate some healthy sides and snacks into the menu.  She was completely on board and asked me to send my recommendations.  I am even getting the kids involved, by making some healthy fruit snacks that are cute to make and look at, and tasty to eat!

I’m super motivated, I cannot wait to see how things progress!!

Until next time…


So, I mentioned in my last post that I was competing in a diet bet through the site www.dietbetter.com.  The bet lasts 28 days where you have to weigh in by photographing your feet on the scale with a special word they provide at the beginning of the challenge and a full body shot of you standing on the scale.  The same is requested of you at the end of the challenge, except they provide you a new ‘secret’ word to use for the final weigh in.  Every person puts money into the pot, most start at $25.00 and whoever meets their goal gets at a minimum their money back, if not more from the people who did not meet their goal.  Essentially, every person who meets their goal splits the pot.

I, unfortunately, did not meet my goal.  I was expected to lose 7.6 lbs in 28 days and I lost 4 lbs.  Although I did not win the ‘pot’ of money, I am still proud of the my success.  I actually lost weight – 4 whole pounds.  This may seem very minor, but for me it’s a great accomplishment considering I’ve only seen the scale increase over the last 10 months.

This weight loss has actually motivated me to get back in the gym and eating mostly healthy.  So far, so good.  I’ve been to the gym twice this week and I’m eating consistently healthy meals.  I have gone out to eat a couple of times over the last week, but I made sure to stick to salads leaving off the bacon and fried onions and using a lite version of dressing.  I’ve increased my water intake, which is really difficult for me since I don’t like to drink water.  Crazy, I know…but I just don’t like plain water!  I’m finally making some progress!  Life has been rough the last several months – my schedule is crazy hectic, but I have made it a priority to get in the gym – even if it’s only for 30 minutes.  Any time is better than no time!  I’m working my way back.  I have a long, hard road ahead of me, but I will get there.

Until next time…

Failure…an option??

Posted: October 21, 2013 in Uncategorized

successHello all, I keep avoiding this blog like the plague because I don’t want to be accountable for my actions!  Sad, but true.  I keep saying I want to be fit, I want to be healthy, but I’m not taking the proper steps to ensure success.  I am tired of being fat, I’m tired of not feeling comfortable in my own skin, in clothing, pictures – you name it – but what am I really doing about it?!  NOTHING!  I do little things here and there, but I’m not consistent – instead, I continue to sabotage any measure of success I’ve gained.  I continue to be the fattest I have ever been – I’m up to 187.6 lbs.  Yippie!  I’m very disappointed in my myself.  I know what to do, I just haven’t found the motivation to get things moving in a consistent manner.

About two weeks ago, I signed up for a diet challenge through dietbetter.com – great site and great motivation!  I initially started off great, by losing 3 lbs in the first 1.5 weeks, but this weekend it all went to hell because my parents were in town and I ate like crap all weekend. My weight jumped back up to 187 lbs.  I’m hopeful that I will get myself back on track this week.  I’m taking a spin class tonight!

I haven’t given up – failure is not an option for me!

Until next time…

What a humbling experience to see myself on camera…to see how far I have truly fallen.  Here are my starting stats:

Weight:  183 lbs

Body Fat: 37.4%


Wrist:  6″

Arms:  12.75″

Forearm:  10.5″

Neck: 13.5″

Shoulders:  42″

Waist:  34.75″

Hip:  44.5″

Thigh:  24.75″

Calf:  15″

Time to get to work!  Off to the gym I go to work on upper body and 30 min of cardio!  Thanks for following my journey! Enjoy your day!!

buddhaHello all,  I have to admit, reading my last entry made me sad and embarrassed of how far I have fallen since last year’s incredible gains.  I also found incredible motivation to do better – to find my way – to become a better me!  I have started to work out 3 days a week incorporating weight training and cardio into my routine and I have cleaned up my eating.  I’m still struggling in the evenings with snacking, but I’ve curbed that quite a bit too.   I’m 183 lbs – that’s my starting weight!  I will take ‘before’ pics tonight and post them.  I will also post my body fat and measurements.  It’s time to be accountable, it’s time to get on track and it’s time to be a healthier me!  I’m tired of being fat, I’m tired of making excuses, I’m tired of being tired.  It’s time to make a lifestyle change for the long-term.

My Struggle…

Posted: July 29, 2013 in Uncategorized

It has been a while since I last posted because I am ashamed of my progress.  I have not been doing well, I’m officially over 180 lbs and I continue to be at my fattest weight ever.  I have incorporated healthy foods into my lifestyle and I have been working out.  I, however, have not been consistent in either category.  I thought I could go without restricting myself from unhealthy foods, but with my recent weight gain, I don’t believe I can continue on this route.  I also am so sore from my workouts that it is taking me days to recover.  I am only averaging about 2 days a week at the gym, and that isn’t enough to combat the calories I’m taking in. 

I’m struggling to find my way.  I managed a bit last year when I lost 17 lbs in over a 3-month period, but that was on a very restrictive diet and work out schedule.  I, ultimately, found that plan to be a bit much for me to maintain on a long-term basis.  I need to find a balance using key components of this plan with one that is manageable for me long-term. 

I am working on finding a way that works for me, I have 10 months to reach my goal!  My struggle is real…